Top of the Blog: CUM GIRLS had both dressed we went downstairs and sat around talking. Together we tried to think of a way to tell Jessica about my relationship with Ellen. There didn't seem to be any solution to the problem. Each idea we came up with always ended up relying on Jessica to be forgiving and understanding, something that might have worked if the other woman had been anyone but her own mother. I knew that if I was going to have any success in forging a lasting relationship with Ellen, then I needed to tell Jessica in a way that wouldn't cause her to hate me or resent her mother. By the time Hannah left we were no closer to figuring it all out.